/http://katemotaung.com/five-minute-friday/. I am finding myself a week behind... so technically this was last week's prompt. I am continuously reminded to give myself a little freedom when I don't meet the deadline.
Two quick definitions of the word "follow."
1- to go or come after (A person or thing proceeding ahead); to move or travel behind.
2- come after in time or order.
I could write a lengthy blog about how either definition applies to my life. After all, I am a follower. I like simply be told what needs doing and then allowed to do it. I am finding myself in more and more leadership roles within our church and sometimes I just want someone to tell me what needs doing.
But this morning definition 2 is pulling at my heart strings. Have you experienced the period of time that comes after a storm; the peace that follows a trial in life? That's where life has gotten "real" or "authentic" in the past 6 months of my life. I have walked through the most difficult 16 months of my life. I have felt: anger, bitterness, defeat, brokenness, grief and many other emotions. But after about month 10 in the journey, I began to feel: at peace, less anxious, forgiven, refreshed and loved. This period following the darkest days have been some of my brightest days.
I've a new relationship with my Savior.
I am able to be more "authentic" in my relationships because I have experienced the darkness.
I find myself more aware of the needs around me.
I find myself pouring out more praise to a God who never let me down.
I find myself looking to the cross for strength rather than trying to go it alone.
I find myself desiring more time of God and less of me.
Don't get me wrong, I would never, ever want to walk through that valley again. But the time that followed is a sweet time. And don't get me wrong, after this time of restoration, there will be another valley to follow.
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