My mind immediately went to a negative place when I saw the word
DREAM.
DREAM.
Once again I am following Kate Motaung. 5 minutes of unscripted writing. Its a lot harder than you imagine. You can link with her here: http://katemotaung.com/2015/06/25/five-minute-friday-dream/
As a child I dreamed I would have a wonderful husband. But before I settled down, I dreamed of dedicating a few years on the mission field... preferably in Africa somewhere. I dreamed of being a mom to many adopted children both domestically and internationally. I dreamed of growing old with my husband by my side and grandchildren all around.
But life happened.... my marriage fell apart. My daughter is in a period of rebellion... I feel totally alone and inadequate in any type of ministry. So dreams didn't come true. UNLESS, those dreams were stepping stones to lead me to a closer relationship with my Savior.
I have to admit, as my dreams were "squashed" right before me, I could feel God's presence in a real way. He was beckoning me to draw closer to Him, to see what his call on my life was. I know that God's ultimate goal in my life is sanctification... making me more like Christ and to life my life giving God the glory. It is a life of serving others so that they may see what God is doing in my life.
So I dare to peek over the fence into my future. It is always scary to go into the "great unknown"...to seek first his Kingdom and then to figure out how to draw others closer to him through relationships
.![I Think This Often. I really think about this quote all the time. Every year for the last 5 years has brought changes I never could have even dreamed of. All the change is really good and I think it means Im doing things right. It excites me to see where Im at and what I might be doing next year :] I know itll be something I never could have imagined.](https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/53/4f/48/534f48031057a39370df47fd0fce75a1.jpg)
This is the truth. A year ago, my world looked different. I was searching for God amidst my broken and shattered dreams. Fast forward 18 months and I see God's hand in each decision and relationship I have allowed God to put me in.
Eventually, God will make his plans known to me. For today, I will continue to go where he leads, taking one step at a time. I will go into the dark places with utter confidence that God has the plan and he only needs to give me daily nuggets of knowledge and courage.
